Monday, 6 July 2015

I'm back!

It has been a while since my last post here. I have not been maintaining the site and many posts have broken links. The main reason why I haven't been posting, one reason amongst many, is that I have been and still am suffering from depression for many years. It has been going on for more than 5 years but it is only recently that I have decided to seek professional help. I didn't even acknowledge that I had a problem until a few years ago. However, I realised that I simply could't ignore it any more and that if I left it for much longer then there may come a time when I would think it is too late to seek help. Depression is an incredibly debilitating condition that paralyses the mind. Some days I struggle to get out of bed. Worst of all is that depression has robbed me of almost all pleasures in life. I no longer enjoy doing the things I used to love to do such as read books, listen to music, exercise, socialise with friends etc. I also no longer enjoy doing electronics - the only thing I know how to do and used to enjoy doing everyday. I don't really have a positive, or any, outlook for the future. After finding out about all the types of help available to me from the NHS I was left with the feeling that there really isn't much that can be done. However, I have to do something and one of those things is to start blogging again. I will try to write at least one post a day and will also diversify the topics I write about compared to the science/technology focused theme. There will be more socio-political posts. It will be a struggle to get back into writing again. Even as I write this short post it feels like a struggle, as if my fingers have forgotten how to move and my brain has this fog inside it clouding and obstructing clear though. However, I must try as the alternative is too bleak.


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